My Grudge For You

March 12, 2010 § Leave a comment

I’m not the type of person to hold grudges nor am I a person who easily gets mad. I’m also not the kind of person who’s impulsive actions are based on hate.

I’ve been raised far better than that.

I may not be the perfect person, I have my own flaws just like everyone else. Deep inside, I cry in shame and hate for myself for what I have committed and done. It’s the hole in my being and memory. It’s dark and deep, something needed to be forgotten… « Read the rest of this entry »


Happy Valentines!

February 3, 2010 § Leave a comment

Hello, guys!

It’s a bit early, but happy valentines!

I haven’t been really into the “event” these past few years but it doesn’t mean I don’t give any care for it. I still care, I just don’t bother to do anything. 😀

Anyway, I’ve made a new original, it’s entitled, “Blue Valentine“. And yes, as the title says, it’s not a happy story. It’s a sad, angst-ish one-shot that is based on real events and real people. Who they are, I don’t know. 😐 Yes, it’s true. I haven’t met them but only heard of their love and loss, to them, my heart cries. This story is dedicated to them.

May they both finally found the happiness they deserve.

Blue Valentine

February 3, 2010 § Leave a comment

Here I sat on the pew beside my old college friends. I smiled at them and they smiled back but I could see the pity and the tightness in their smiles. I could sense how my presence nerved them. Hell, I think all my peers were nerved when they saw me enter.

And I knew why they were so, I knew and hurt in rage and cursed the heavens for what fate they had given me.

There my bride, my lover, the keeper of this heart who beats in faint dull beats–she, the love my soul–walks down the aisle in a beautiful wedding dress to the man she was to be wedded to.

This was my woman, this woman who belonged to me, this woman who held my life, my love, she was given to me by the cruel angels. « Read the rest of this entry »

No Comfort

October 20, 2009 § Leave a comment

No Comfort

Pairing: Flay [x] Yzak [x] Shiho

Setting: Phase 41

Flay Allster had been staying for over a month with ZAFT and under Rau Le Creuset’s watch. At least he wasn’t pedophilic; he hadn’t tried to touch her in that way.

But Flay was the type of girl who needed that kind of comfort yet not with men like Rau. She preferred men who were good-looking and about the same as she was.

There was only one man that filled all her standards from the entire ship and time that she had been with ZAFT—that was Yzak Joule, the only Red in Rau’s team, which was an added bonus.

Flay didn’t like coordinators yet she was still also a teenage girl inside, granted not like most normal girls yet she was still one. She needed comfort and she knew that only the silver-haired coordinator could do it. « Read the rest of this entry »


October 14, 2009 § Leave a comment

Cold is the black night
Her figure white and longing
Her world bleak with no light
Her mind wandering and wandering

It was a need too strong
To have it all, all, all
Waiting and waiting so long
Still she years and call

Year after year worsening
Her mind shrouded in bleak black
Hopeless in dreaming and dreaming
He would never come back
But she couldn’t stop hoping and hoping

Is This Truly The End?

October 14, 2009 § Leave a comment

I have been with you guys
Through the ups and the downs
Through the truths and the lies
With the smiles and the frowns

Now the time is closing in
Slowly my heart is breaking
Intense pain surging within
With each minute passing « Read the rest of this entry »

At The Beginning

October 14, 2009 § Leave a comment

If I could turn back time and tide
I’d do so in less than a heartbeat
‘Cause I wanna be at your side
Without you guys I’m less than incomplete

I wish to go back to the start
Where I’m didn’t have this breaking heart
Where I wasn’t faced with reality
Where my days were filled with tranquility

I wanna go back to the start of everything
I wanna stand by all of you at the beginning

Where Am I?

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